Recently, someone special to me, told me to take some time and be selfish. This was a hard thing for me to consider. I had spent the last 6 years of my life putting my Mom and my Grandma’s needs before my own. Even now, after no longer having to care for them on a daily basis, I am still finding that I am putting others before myself. The word “no” is difficult for me to use. I don’t like letting people down, or disappointing people. Because I can’t seem to say “no,” I find that I am stressed, emotionally and physically, exhausted all of the time and not spending as much time as I would like doing the things that I love.
Please don’t get me wrong – I appreciate every single person who has reached out to me in every way. I appreciate your concern and your kindness. I appreciate the love and the hugs and the words of encouragement. I appreciate you all, more than you will ever understand, and I am so very thankful to have the amazing family and friends that I do.
I just need a little time to breathe.
I don’t want to feel rushed every moment of the day.
I don’t want to feel exhausted all of the time.
I want to be able to enjoy the moment.
So, starting today, I am going to start occasionally using the word “no.” Not because I don’t want to see you, or participate in an activity, but because I need to be selfish for a little while and take a deep breath or two. I need some time for me, to discover myself all over again.
Being selfish isn’t about excluding people or experiences from my life. It is about living more simply. Not overbooking myself and my time. And making sure that I slow down enough to appreciate all of the moments that pass. Life is so short. Sometimes, you have to be a little selfish to be sure you are happy.
In just a few short days, I will be traveling to Italy with a few of my closest friends. I am going to take time to notice and appreciate the small things. Breathe in the air. Enjoy the food and the wine. Appreciate the opportunity and experience the country the very best that I am able to.
I look forward to sharing my experiences through this blog and hope that you will be there to notice and appreciate all of the small things with me along the way.
Do me a favor and do something for YOU today. No matter how big or small. Do something that makes YOU happy.
Imagine all of the crazy, beautiful possibilities.